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Name: Myklops
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Madison
Birthday: 9/5/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Automotive repair, making sweet music with friends, family, and various music-making programs (see below)
Expertise: Automotive repair, music-making (see above), making people confused, non-lethal sucker punching, insulting from afar, various hiding and stealth techniques, capoeira,
Occupation: Being ridiculously good-lookin
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  schmidtsandwich
Member Since:
10/27/2005
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| What a weekend. Andrew and Lisa are now married, and all of the groomsmen were crying pretty hardcore at the wedding yesterday, more than anyone else, too. I've been to weddings and witnessed the beauty of it all, but I've never participated in a wedding, nor with any family members. It just made me realize how much I love Andrew, and how much I want he and Lisa to be happy together. Weddings are beautiful sadness. They are the joining of two individuals as one, but they are the marking of a drastic change in the lives of the wedded, as well as their families. Andrew has "left the nest" as it were, and his primary concern now is with the building of a marriage, and sometime down the line, a family. I am going to miss the tremendous wisdom and guidance that Andrew offered to me on such a regular basis. I know he'll still be around, but his priorities have to change, that's just the way it is. I never thought growing up would happen to me. I now get to participate in and live out what I saw occur only in other's lives when I was a wee lad. I pretty much am a wreck from this weekend, both physically and emotionally drained. I hate traveling with my family, but I love to travel. Maybe it just has to be with the right person(s). Needless to say the second we got home I got in my car and just drove for a good hour with the stereo cranked.
Also, please pray for me in the area of relationship. I am beginning to place my needs in people instead of God, and needless to say, have been distracting and distancing myself from God.
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| So often I find myself allowing my thoughts to wander to places that I shouldn't be. And yet, when I find myself thinking thoughts I shouldn't, I allow myself to keep right on pursuing those thoughts! Paul was right when he told us (especially men) to take every thought captive. It's all too easy to dig ourselves into a hole with depressing or anxious thoughts, and to let them run our lives. One of my teachers in high school told me, "If there's nothing you can do about the situation, then there's no need to worry. And if there is something you can do about the situation, then there's no need to worry." Kind of a "duh" kind of truth, but a very real and good one as well.
Recently, I've felt like I haven't been making the brightest decisions, and have been very selfish about things. I also have to put in to practice "guarding my heart", because as a man, it's easy to get too attached to the opposite sex, and start fabricating a relationship inside my head, when really, I should be a friend, first and foremost. And I encourage any man who's considering pursuing a relationship with a woman, to constantly question his motives, and to try and keep the purest intentions in mind. And always, always, be a friend first, for a good long while, because if it ends up not working, and you already have a long relationship or marriage in mind, you're going to be heartbroken. And it can be quite embittering.
Plus, I've felt God taking the reigns away from me as of late. I've always been a go-getter, someone who makes things happen. And I've felt myself alienating the ones I love recently, due to my controlling nature. So, God's just been showing me how to "let it ride" as it were. It's been hard giving up control to others, as well as God, because there's uncertainty there. And I've always been someone who relies on logic, rather than emotion or feelings to guide my decisions. Which is where I think the faith aspect has to come in. Because, without faith, I would be a sitting duck. God, I trust you with my life. It feels good to say that for the first time in a long time.
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| God is so good. I'm just in awe right now. I'll post real soon, but for now, I gotta study.
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| Yes, it's true. I am, indeed, back. For what, I have no idea :). Anywho, my deal lately has been awakening from the stooper I've been in for the last few months. Looking back on past experiences, I've been asleep for a good three months. It's like in the movie Click when the remote speeds through his existence, and he looks back on it, realizing he missed everything.
I've missed out on the subtle nuances of life. I've gotten "caught up", as it were, in my own selfish thoughts and desires to the point of shrouding out what other people are even saying to me. Someone could have spoken profound truth into my life, and really made a difference, but I was deaf to it all. I have felt like such a schmuck for not listening to friends, and not taking a genuine interest in their lives or wellbeing. I've missed it. Because, it seems to be when I focus on others more than myself, that's when God becomes a much bigger part of my life.
Friends, please forgive me for being a major jerkwad.
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